Just now, 3:pm, middle of Sunday, last puff was done about 30 minutes ago. I can feel the clarity coming and frankly it’s annoying, and this would be about the time I would reload another bowl… (sigh)…. Typically I would plan to quit tomorrow morning since I seem to need weed to sleep and it’s hard to stop once you started the day high (which I’ve said and failed at an embarrassingly large amount of times) BUT INSTEAD I’m going to quit during the day so I can feel it fading off, and work through my fixation consciously..
I’ve assessed my life and I know why I want this change and I can do this for 3 weeks. IT’s ONLY 3 WEEKS! I’m guessing by three weeks I’ll have officially cleared my head, be past the cravings; and I can reflect on my love for marijuana and re-think dating Mary Jane part time; but I can’t ever go back to the amount I smoke now… I know that much. Right now I admit I have a problem. But that’s ok I’m human and let some things get away from me. I underestimated the power of weed over my life, now I’m consciously correcting it.
I can’t, I won’t go crackhead mode in my house looking for scrapings and crumbs of pot because there is no more weed in the house, and right now I am going to rinse off all my pipes and grinders and put my weed stuff in a box, tape it up well, and place it in the garage or somewhere out of sight.